So this seems to happen around this time of year. I actually wished I didn’t know why but If I said that I know I would be lying. Getting close to my birthday and this is normally a great time for people to celebrate them getting a year older and all that stuff.
I’m married to a wonderful woman who loves me and have awesome in laws that love to celebrate birthdays and special occasions. It’s always odd to hear one’s mother in law say “Your birthday is coming next month, where do you want to go for dinner for your birthday?” as she wipes out her calendar to try to match up schedules to see when is the best time to celebrate. Last year they made a point to go out to dinner even though they had been out on vacation to still take me out. They even mailed me my birthday card and they live in the same city, but they were out on vacation!
My wife she’s amazing, she always does a good job in getting me a present and just being there and making me feel awesome. She does that even when it’s not my birthday. I know what you are thinking? So what the hell is wrong with you man?
Well the above scenario is something that’s played out for the past three to four years. The years before that they weren’t so grandiose. Even some of the things that happen still happen today. I had one birthday from my childhood that stood out above any other birthday when I was growing up. This was the birthday where I turned twelve years old. I actually had a birthday party and had friends come over and I got a whole twelve dollars for every year of my birthday! My grandmother made a guitar cake and it was so cool.
The rest of my birthdays well they weren’t so grandiose! A lot time it was forgotten by family members and it didn’t have any celebrations. I guess I shouldn’t complain or at least that’s what I’ve been told. It was just never a time where I actually felt special. Which seemed to have been a running theme of my upbringing. That’s for another blog post I suppose. Those days of not feeling special still creep back up on me and makes me view myself in a light that is not becoming.
I remember an exercise that my therapist had me do back in the day. He said I have to start playing “tapes” of good qualities that I am and stop listening to the “bad tapes” of what others have said about me. There are times in my life I end up going back to that “virtual tape case” and pulling out the old tapes and start playing them, I don’t know why it’s just dumb and silly I know.
It just seems like today is one of those days where I can’t turn off the damn tape player. Anyone have a hammer?
This thing that I pulled today will be one that I’ll have to pick and choose who I tell. It’s definetely something I love and it’s true. Thank you Renee for being availiable and undestanding. But I can say…it is number 32!
So today’s thing that was pulled was something that Renee loved about us. I have to say, I agree. Here it is… “266. We support each other with Just a look.” I have to say this is so true. Without a word we can show support for one another you know…silent communication!
So we have here the birthday loot from Renee. She got me the Jonathan Coulton “Best. Concert. Ever.” DVD/CD combo. If you don’t know who Jonathan Coulton is he’s one of our favorite artist you should check out his wiki to explain who he is .
She also got me the Practical Joker’s Handbook with the promise that I will not play any practical jokes on her. There are some pretty good ones in there . Now next is my favorite! What you see there is a cookie jar but it bears no cookies! What it bears is 365 Things that Renee loves about me and us! She knows I’m a day calendar lover and she made me my very own day calendar that I will never have to be thrown away. So each day I will take one slip of paper out and it’ll have something that she loves about me or us. I’m not throwing these away like I do my other calendar stuff but I’m keeping them and I’m going to reuse them year after year.
Thank you Danielle, Demetrius, Kim for my book from Barnes and Noble (sorry about my wishlist mishap but it really worked out)
Thank you Mr. and Mrs. Crocker for my book as well (again sorry for the wishlist mishap it’s going to go towards the new india.arie CD today) This will go down as one of the best birthdays celebrations I’ve had.
Thank you Renee so being so awesome and being in my life I love you guuuurlll!